Human nature?

You remember that blog about sleep I made yesterday?  I so went against that.

I haven’t been sleeping properly the past two weeks.  Now that this trimester is over, that needs to change, along with several of my other disorganizational habits.  The only problem is, if I try to change so many things at once, I’m afraid that it will all collapse like it has in the past.  I keep trying to improve myself and say, “No fooling around.  I really need to give it 100% of my strength.”  When I try to do that, though, I suddenly lose all strength and any progress I made just crashes and burns.

Anyway, I didn’t go to bed until, like, 11:30.  I’ve kept making excuses for why I haven’t been going to bed at the right time, but last night was pretty ridiculous.  I stayed up photoshopping.  I mean, I’d ‘a gone to bed had I not decided to take my shower so late.  I just can’t go to bed with wet hair.  It bothers me.  (I should get in the shower soon.)

And I know that isn’t that much of a big deal, but I basically said “Don’t put yourself in a position where you’re going to want to sleep when you’re obligated to something,” and immediately after that, I put myself in a position where I was going to want to sleep when I was obligated to do something.  In fact, the very thing I was obligated to do the next day was the most important (?) test of the entire trimester.

When I do things like this, I can’t help but to ponder on human nature.  Humans are intelligent creatures, but confusing.  I can’t really say anything about it because I’m confusing myself.

But this pondering does help me gain wisdom.  I am no where near wise—I don’t spend a lot of my time in scriptures—but I do have wisdom in areas other people my age don’t.  And often times, teens end up doing things that take huge chunks of their lives.  There is quite a lot of suffering in our world.  With the wisdom God has granted me, I can help people, and I plan on doing that.

Good night friends.  If you do need help, I can willfully help you.  There are several ways you can contact me, one of them being through my prayer request site http://tinyurl.com/prayerrequest.